Tuesday, January 11, 2011

My Last First Day

            Well my bag is packed and my first day outfit is all picked out…for the very.last.time.  Tomorrow is my very last first day of school (and yes, I am sure about this…no chance in hell that this girl is going back for her PhD).  And though there is a teeny tiny part of me that is sad and a little bit scared that the real world is inching dangerously close and the end of grad school is in sight, for the most part I am excited and very much looking forward to the end of school.  After 18 years, this whole homework thing has gotten a little old.  

            And because the end is nearing, I have started to hear that unsettling question that I answered relentlessly during my senior year of college…"So what’s next for you?”  But this time, instead of confidently spewing my perfectly crafted answer that I am heading to grad school to pursue the career path that I am certain is perfect for me, I am utterly uncertain.  I have absolutely no idea where I will be come August.  But I’m okay with that because the beauty is in the unknown.  Along with the anxiety that accompanies uncertainty (at least in my life) comes the hope of new possibilities and I can’t wait to see what the next year will bring.  But until then, I am living and loving this moment as my puppy love snuggles at my feet and the city of Nashville is quieted by snowflakes (!) outside my window.

Hope you're having a happy Tuesday and, if you're living in the South, a happy snow day!

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